Does my presence guarantee your happiness and success
Does me being here make us stronger even when I’m still tormented by my demons
Have you ever asked yourself
What if leaving is the best option
What if not being here makes the both of us stronger and equipped for our sister souls yet to come
I may not happy being here,
Yet the thought of letting you know that shreds me into pieces
Pieces so small that they look nothing like the whole me that once was
I may not be happy leaving here,
But I guess telling you that is pointless has you have figured out that I will be better off elsewhere
Elsewhere where I won’t be trapped by the same frontiers of this place I longed to call home
Truth is, I am afraid
Afraid of returning to a place I am not meant to be in only to realize that indeed, I should have never left
Afraid to forget you as I get swallowed by my toxic routines that triggered the anxiety I thought I had overcame
But what if I choose to stay… then what