I haven’t been feeling lately,
Getting used to the inability to feel pain both frighten yet excite me.
I haven’t allowed myself to be consumed recently,
I made a pledge to my being to work on getting better, to create a new me.
That’s why I’ve stayed away from the world,
Afraid to share a truth that holds more lies than what lies behind this canvas you are reading this on,
Afraid to tell someone that everything was not okay when it was or that I was happy when I am not.
Truth is, I don’t have it all figured out,
I spend most of my days questioning life & working on creating a better world starting with me.
Truth is, I am afraid of jumping into the unknown coz that’s just what it is unknown
Truth is, I am taking life one minute, hour, day at a time,
Working on my anxieties, refusing to be triggered and finding peace.
Truth is, I am numb yet at peace and that makes me happy.